Ahana's pov:

I got startled at first but my nerves immediately calmed hearing his heavy breathing and feeling warmth of his embrace.

I can understand his situation it must be very difficult for him tolerating them .

"Ahhhh ..."

Heavy breath left my mouth when he snaked his muscular arm through my bare waist as my duppatta has slipped due to his hurry .

"..I have to tolerate that daily........ Ahana....and i don't know how I'm gonna be stay in control"

He said with heavy breathing caging me more in him making me feel his warmth at my body.

"We...we..will handle everything together Rana Sa....."

Hearing me an instant softness rushed through him and his firm grip around me loosen up giving me chance to breath properly but my heart beat stopped when he put his muscular arms under my knees taking me in his hands and i immediately locked hands behind his neck in order to save myself from falling. His eyes were deep burried in mine gazing my soul when he took me towards bed and placed me there making me get a sigh of relief but it' didn't last longer as he too stepped on the bed seating beside me keeping his head on headboard and pulled me closer to his chest in a mere pull

"Rana Sa aap th..thak gye honge...vishram kijiy"

"Rana Sa you must be tired..take rest"

My voice betrayed me as coming out of my mouth in pauses and the it's all impact of our closeness.

I tried to move down from bed but before my feet can touch the ground he held my wrist and layed me under him . That's it.....my chest began to do up and down in deep and fast motion as his deep gaze on me was something to much to handle for me that's too when he was top on me way too close.

"Rana .s..'

"Prem me pad gye hain hum aapke.....wo bhi ese Prem me ke ek Shan bhi aap paas na ho to hriday bechain ho jata hai.....gehri tadap paida hona lagti hai ab to hmare ander "

"I fell in love with you...A love in which my heart feel restless if you're not with me... Deep yearn started in me now "

And my heart flipped again and again realising his words and mind went blank to think and action anything as response.

He...loves..he do..

He loves me...my husband loves me

Oh my god......

He is the most handsome and attractive...and he is Love with me..

What should I do...

Storms of thought erupted in my frozen body .

My heart raced at its maximum rate and i immediately circled my arms around his neck making him keep head on my chest where he can hear my pounding heart effortlessly. Different kinds of sensations occurred in my organs. My arms tighten around him and his too .

"I'm feeling something..Rana Sa... I don't know what is it....but the feeling is very strong and deep ..."

I muttered keeping him close and he slowly pulled leaving a kiss on my earlobe making me feel goosebumps.

"Aren't you liking it...???"

He asked slowly to which I nodded immediately telling him I like this feeling a lot and my stomach turned when he attached his lips on my neck feathering my tender skin filling me with thousands of unexplained feelings.

"Aaaaaaaaaahhhhh"

My lips parted in order to release a sound due to his effect and in matter of a second his lips came to mine taking them in his mouth .

'aaahmmm... Rana Sa "

But my voice was already went in his mouth . My lips got sucked softly yet hungery in his sending waves of shiver in me that i couldn't stop myself opening my mouth and let him enter his tongue and the moment our tongues met my every nerve started to pulse rapidly.

"I want to see you"

Suddenly his whisper came in my ear .

He wants to see me?? But has already seen me ..than how he wants to see me .

"But ..Rana Sa you have already.. seen me..."

I breathed out in order to avoid the thing he wants to..though i already know what about he's talking...

when he detached our lips and stare at me intensely with intoxicated brown eyes which never failed to make my heart skip it's beat .

His face nuzzled in my neck and lips on my ear .

"More than that.....I want to see you more of you....even which is hidden from you ..."

Blood rushed rapidly in my veins hearing his words.

He is directly asking me.....to see my bareness

How can ..I'll die out of shyness if his gaze would at my uncovered skin....

But....

As much i want it to happen.. the fear of judgment by him is same in my senses.

No-one saw me like he wants to so I don't have any idea ... how my uncovered skin would be described...will it be enough for give him satisfied view ...but if he has higher expectations as a king and i wouldn't match the level.....

Thoughts made me uneasy

My attention went to him when i heard..

"Ahana...calm down......it's ok ....i won't force you if y..."

But I spoke in between

"Dekh lijiye...jitna chahen aur jitni der Tak chahen dekh lijiye Rana Sa....hum taiyaar hain aur bhrosa hai aap par...par bhrosa nhi hai khud par.... ke hum kaafi honge aap ke liy ya nahi .."

"See me as much and as long you want..I'm ready and i trust you Rana Sa..but i dont have believe in me..that ill be enough for you or not "

He smiled and kissed my forehead before speaking.

"There's lot of time in this Ahana..it's just me ..who went out of control... we'll take everything slow until I make you understand each and everything  and specially make you get know how much enough only you are for me... No-one can  be enough for me other than you...... you are the only one..who can give abundantness to me .. you hold that capacity that no one other had ,have or will have....mark my words "

His words shifted my mind from insecure to confident zone. Each and every words from him holding the deep meaning which created a genuine smile on my lips.

"Good night Rana Sa"

I said ... only to find a little mesmerizing grin on his handsome face.

"Good night..sleep well my love"

And my heart flipped hearing "love " that i forgot everything i was asking and hugged him making him caress my head which lead me to sleep in no time.

Akshaj :

She hugged me tightly with racing heart making me smile and i wrapped my arms around her petite figure securing in my embrace near my chest and ruffled her silky smooth hairs softly and she immediately fell asleep.

My baby...was tired I see .

Her presence was something for I crave every second and her innocence never backed up pulling the last sting of my sanity but somehow seeing her puzzled and confused reaction I able to stop myself.

And her sleeping in my arms was something

For I can't be enough grateful to my destiny that bring her in my life. I never considered myself as a fortune person despite being a prince of Siyalgarh but her arrival in my dark and dry life.....is the only fortunate and beautiful thing happened to me. For I can kill and die.

Caressing her hairs i also slept having peace and happiness in my heart.

Next morning i got out of my deep and peaceful slumber before the darkness can fully leave and surrounding get natural light.

My ears got audible breaths and i saw her sleeping on my chest while one leg on mine and hand gripped on my kurta . I removed hair strands from her face and my eyes immediately went on her pouted lips.

"Aaaarrrrgghhhhhhhhh"

They are so tempting to me . I just.... want too.........

Oh my God early morning my heart started to imagine sinful things..but I can't be blamed it's her innocence and attraction at the same time. She has no idea what she is doing to me even she is simply laying and consuming her undisturbed sleep . My thumb went to her lips feeling the soft texture under it . Isn't it strange how she is controlling me without getting awareness of it . Her presence is enough for defeat the stromes of madness and desperation in me . Last night I again was near to be in my painful state but her one hand on my chest was enough to calm the hazardous memories of my past and engulf me in her comfort.

"Rana Sa..."

Her husky and sleepy voice got my attention

"Hnnn ji ??"

"Yes"

I replied slowly and mindlessly.

"Hmare..hont.....""

"My lips "

She said in a whisper.

"Man karta hai choos Len "

"Want to suck them "

"Jiiiiiiii"""..

Her little raised voice made me realise that what the fqk i have said.....

What the actual fqk I said ...

Wait ..why do I need to behave like i committed a crime by asking to kiss my own wife' s lips . A smirk formed on my face and i replied her with intense eye contact.

"Yes. .i want to suck them..."

And her cheeks heated up with crimson and she spoke.

"Rana Sa i need to get fresh ....'

She said avoiding the eye contact and stepp down from the bed .

Did i make her uncomfortable... she'snt liking my touches.. that's why she distanced herself...??

But she was all co-operative last night

or she just did..to console me..???

My mind got engulfed with ... numerous questions and thoughts.

Suddenly my mind began to give me insecurities about if she really wants to be in my life or did she all pretend to offer her sympathy for my vulnerableness

And stupid me took it as her desire to be with me even in this kind of situation. I know wives are always taught to be in every thick and thin situation of husbands but it doesn't mean everyone have that kind of mindset. Every person have different preferences regarding their partner.

And Ahana...she is beautiful, one and only princess of the most powerful and wealthy kingdom. Every man would kneel in front of her ..with a single finger's snap . She is perfect in every aspect . Though I'm also any less .... But being with me in this family will come lots of disrespect from those filthy people who I hate a lot and why a princess like Ahana would live a life like this .

Arrrrrrhhhhhhhgggg....my own thinking is killing me by each passing second.  I can't be selfish to drown her in the hell dullness with . She can be kind and polite in order to deny directly with me after knowing my situation but I'm can't do this... for the sake of comfort and peace I get with her .. I can't cage her with me.  I need to know her genuine decision. Even if she wants to leave...that would be alright to me I can live with the pain and miseries but I can never bear any fake feelings and pretended desires just to give me console and sympathy.

This act is simply a lie to me and i can tolerate anything but lying, disloyality and betraying is unforgiving by me. I loath these and the people who performed it especially with their close ones . After finding these things there is no chance that I'm going to see the people with same gaze or trust them .

My heart is saying again and again that Ahana is not that type of person but still believing in someone

blindly is not in the fevor.

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